In Loving Memory Of My Mother

Dear Mommy,

There are no words to tell you what losing you meant to me. No words could take away the sorrow and the pain when I saw your petite body lying motionless on the cold hospital bed. That moment will forever be etched deeply in my mind.

You were the first one who held my little hands, whom guided me, taught me all that you knew about life, but I never thought that I would be holding your cold hands before I could say goodbye to you. I tried to squeeze so hard but you gave no response to me. I called out so loudly to you that my voice and cries were echoing the whole hospital ward which caught the attention of every other patient and their family members.

Though there were so many other people in the room, but at that moment, the whole place seems empty with only you and me. All I could see was your face with your eyes closed. When the doctors were trying to resuscitate you, I was praying so hard to Buddha not to take you away from us. I was begging so hard for you to stay.

I blame myself with regrets for not thanking you enough when you're still around. You've given me all that you could afford and I am ashamed I may not have given you the best that you deserved. I know you have sacrificed your whole life to this family and I truly deeply appreciate all that you've done for us.

Things I hold dearest to my heart is the hardest to say but I hope you knew how much I love you, and I will always love you until my last breath. You're the best mom I could ever asked for. Therefore, it was excruciating painful to see you leave too soon but I am sure God loves you more to stop your sufferings from this world.

I pray that you would be in heaven living happily ever after. Don't worry about us. We are all big enough and independent to take care of ourselves. It is time for you to rest, Mom. I'm so sorry that I could not take care of you anymore. Take care, Mom. You will always be remembered.

Your loving son,
Calvin


P/S: My mother passed away on 15th October 2017, Sunday.